For awhile now I’ve been feeling a bit stuck. Stuck in my own health and wellness journey. Stuck in my business. Stuck in my own personal development. Stuck in my physical space and surroundings.
It’s a place where the old stories of who I am, how I work, how I live, what nourishes me, what I believe in – aren’t working any more. They no longer resonate or seem relevant.
Author and speaker Charles Eisenstein, calls this time in one’s life the “space between stories.” It’s a place of many unknowns and “I don’t knows.” It’s a time of uncertainty, questioning and contemplating that calls for letting go, acceptance and surrender.
It’s a time of growth and transformation. And not unusual for women to experience this type of transition at this stage in life. I’ll be 50 in September. As this midlife appears, so do things like changing hormones, fluctuating energy levels, new health symptoms, restlessness and anxiety.
I am ready for a change. I sense it is near. But it’s not here yet.
As a virgo who wants everything to be clear now, this is a true test of patience. It’s hard when you’re a planner to surrender to what God or the universe has in store for you. It’s challenging to be in the space between stories when you are ready to let go of the old one but still waiting for the new one to emerge.
I’m intentionally trying to embrace this time of uncertainty. To simply be in it. To not take action. To have hope and faith that this new chapter will bring more meaning, purpose, integrity, alignment, love and peace. And to know that it will come when the time is right. When I’m ready.
So I continue to sit, be, wait, contemplate.
Meantime, baby steps are being taken. Small shifts are occurring. Fine cracks of light are getting in.
One of the areas I’ve been taking a deep dive into, is how I offer and structure my online group programs.
As an introvert and a solo business owner, I’ve become overwhelmed and disillusioned with the online approaches to mass marketing.
To be honest, I’ve buckled under the constant pressure to continually create content, host Facebook groups, beautifully photograph my life for Instagram, host free challenges, develop opt-ins and funnels, facilitate webinars, record videos, develop recipes, and the list goes on and on and on.
To me, all of this is driven by one measure of success – money. The marketing messages are all about working less and earning more, making multiple six figures, building a bigger list, charging higher prices, reaching more people.
And while I may have bought into these messages for awhile. They are no longer working for me.
Introvert Michelle can’t continually step up to this pressure to be highly visible, create copious amounts of content and post my life in pictures on social media to promote a lifestyle brand. It’s just not me.
I have no aspirations to run an online health and wellness empire. I’ve chosen this work and lifestyle so I could help people on their health and wellness journeys and also have balance, flexibility, meaning and purpose in my own life.
Another aspect that doesn’t sit well with me, is that money can sometimes a barrier to me being of service or helping someone find more health and wellbeing. It doesn’t feel right that some people get excluded. I want my offerings to be accessible to anyone inspired to participate in them.
I’ve come to realize I subscribe to more of a boutique business model. Small, personal, with high attention to detail and customer service. Caring, meaningful connections with people who truly want to make dietary and lifestyle changes for sustainable health and wellbeing.
To this end, I’ve been asking, contemplating, praying, meditating on this one question:
“How can I continue to serve and offer my unique gifts to the world, in a more heartfelt, soulful, balanced, organic, caring, authentic and truthful way?”
The answer is not 100% clear yet. But a few bits and pieces have become visible.
Pay What You Choose
The first shift that has arisen is about pricing. I’ve been watching a few respected teachers and coaches offering programs in a different way from the typical stated price-for-product. Instead they aren’t determining the price but inviting the purchaser to determine what they can and want to pay. I’m very intrigued by this pay-what-you-choose approach.
To this end, I am working on modifying a few of my upcoming programs and inviting you pay what you choose if you’d like to participate.
This feels like the right next step for me. It’s exciting. I feel a sense of lightness around it. And it’s also a bit scary. It’s an experiment; unknown territory I look forward to stepping into. I do so with a bit of trepidation, but also with an open heart and curiosity.
Keep an eye on your inbox for news of my first pay-what-you-choose offering. I’m currently figuring out all the details. Stay tuned.
Thank you for reading and for being a valued member of my community. This isn’t the end of the story. Just the beginning of a new chapter. I hope you’ll stick around to see how it unfolds.
With love and blessings for a well nourished summer,